With the horrific developments out of Penn State, any reflection on the career of Joe Paterno is tinged with conflicting emotions.
Paterno was just three years into his 46 seasons as head coach of the Nittany Lions when the the Rooney family offered him an annual salary of $70,000, a full $50,000 more than he made at the university.
"Pittsburgh Steelers: The Complete Illustrated History" recounts how Paterno struggled with his decision before turning down the team.
"It was an awful lot of money, a fantastic offer," Paterno said in the book. "I'd never dreamed of making that much money. Then I started thinking about what I wanted to do. I had put some things out of whack. I haven't done the job I set out to do at Penn State."
One would imagine Paterno feels that with even more intensity today, ushered out in the chaos surrounding child sex-abuse allegations at the school.