These are the words of A.J. Smith, the team's longtime general manager who doubles as his own worst critic.
"I've failed in every single attempt, and that kills me. I hate to lose. Hate it," Smith told U-T San Diego this week. "Do that and you're a LOSER. Hopefully you get a chance to try again?"
By extension, Smith refuses to call San Diego a winner.
"When I sit back and assess myself, I'm disappointed," he said. "Nine years and no world championship. Five trips to the postseason and five failures, and I don't like it. It's what drives me."
Smith specializes in this variety of set-the-bar-low, set-up-your-opponent chatter. He previously said his team wasn't fit for "Hard Knocks" fame. Really? Who could resist cutaways to Smith, in some darkened office, dishing out long soliloquies: "You should have seen me in 1976," he'd say quietly, to nobody.