Our Digital Features Editor, Amar Shah, has never played fantasy football until this year. He'll chronicle his adventures here.
"In a real dark night of the soul it is always three o'clock in the morning." - F. Scott Fitzgerald
Sunday night I couldn't sleep. It wasn't because my Florida Gators lost to Georgia Southern. And it wasn't because earlier that day both my mom and my mother-in-law talked to one other and decided to ambush my wife and I with their annual "where's our future grandchild?/your biological clock is ticking" conversation. No, the reason I kept tossing and turning was a fantasy football-related insomnia.
Going into Sunday night I was ahead of my opponent Alabaster Ulysses Fresco by four points. All I needed was Eric Decker and Anquan Boldin to outscore Shane Vereen and I'd win my sixth in a row and a potential playoff spot. Well, Peyton Manning didn't consider Decker much of a target against the New England Patriots and Shane Vereen ran the ball and caught plenty of Tom Brady passes. My four-point fantasy lead had now turned into a 12-point deficit.
After I thought my wife went to sleep, I hid under the covers with my laptop and kept trying to find various scenarios where Anquan Boldin would get me 13 points. Lucky enough, I was in a PPR league. But Boldin also was the poster boy of fantasy frustration. One week he dominates and the other week, he catches one pass. Jets-like.
As I was breaking down potential playoff scenarios just in case I lost, I was suddenly blinded by a flash. I was caught again in the act by my wife even after I agreed to no fantasy football-related activities in the bedroom. After she took the picture she tossed me the phone.
"Post that photo in your blog. That's your punishment"
"You mean column?"
Pat on the back
Who doesn't like a pat on the back? A little approval on a job well done. I, of course, am prone to enjoying compliments, especially when I fish for them. Hence, my asking fantasy editor Marcas Grant for his opinion on my progression this season. Yet, it didn't go as planned.
I think they approve.
Winning is the Best Revenge
Hulk Hogan would be proud.
Hanzus is too intimidated to talk trash back to me.
Beautiful irony. The Percy Harvin story comes full circle. The team that traded him to me will now feel his wrath. Cue the [villanous revenge laugter](http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MTJWTp9zsY
The Good Dr.
For the last week of the fantasy regular season I sought the guidance of Adam Rank, who broke out the fantasy binder and assessed my chances this week.
I also sought advice from fantasy therapist Dr. Philliot.
My wife and I went to our friend Sarah's house for Thanksgiving. The middle of the Dallas Cowboys and Oakland Raiders game was on. My wife passive-aggressively asked me if my team was playing. It was my cue to switch to the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. She told me none of the guests were football fans.
Next Week: Will Team Amarica make the playoffs?
Amar Shah is the Digital Features Editor at NFL.com. He writes weekly about his first-time fantasy adventures throughout the season. You can reach him at @amarshahism. If you have trade or marital advice, let him know.
Previous articles in the Series:
Fantasy first-timer: Here's why I decided to play
Fantasy first-timer: My First Draft
Fantasy first-timer: Week 1: My First Week
Fantasy first-timer: Week 2: First loss, marital strife, advice from who?!
Fantasy first-timer: Week 3: Breaking Bradford
Fantasy first-timer: Week 4: Losing Streaks and Sean Connery
Fantasy first-timer: Week 5: Channeling Darth Vader, Thor and The Beatles
Fantasy first-timer: Week 6: The Cam Newton Conspiracy
Fantasy first-timer: Week 7: Fantasy first-timer: Dwight Shrute, "The League" and Aloo Gobi
Fantasy first-timer: Week 8: Fantasy first-timer: Week 8: Epic Upsets and Molly-whopping
Fantasy first-timer: Week 9: Jerry Rice, Warren Sapp and back in the playoff chase
Fantasy first-timer: Week 10: LL Cool J, Percy Harvin and American Pie
Fantasy first-timer: Week 11: Champ Kind advice, trade deadlines and Gandalf